Chasing dark thought

“God created suffering so that joy might appear through it’s opposite” – Rumi

Example 1

We were supposed to go hiking on Monday, but the leader had to postponed it to Tuesday and informed us at the very last minute because his son is feverish. Knowing me, I’m easily disturbed if things didn’t go according to my plan. I took a deep breath and continue to sleep. The thing is.. I already had plan with my mom on Tuesday’s afternoon around 2pm. So we had to travel to the trail ( the place is 1.5 hour drive from my place) earlier than we already plan. We left around 4am in the morning, and reached destination at 6.03 and  we had to back before 1100 am.

The struggle was real. It was 5 times  harder than my previous hills.The hills have  10 peaks. When we had to go down the hills, the sun was already rose and I was drenched in sweats. My body is finely tuned but the external factor- the sun. The heat was killing me.At hill no.5, I stopped and I slumped, exhausted onto the grass. I intended to take a long break, but the leader forced us to move. The longer we wait, the hotter the place gonna be. So we moved, with slow and steady pace.

a) If we were going on Monday we  left home at 5 am, and gonna reached the trail at 7.03 am.  With our pace, I don’t think I can make it

b) Moreover, the leader intended to drive his car, but luckily when he brought his son to clinic, the engine cannot start. Weak battery. So he changed his mind, he drove his wife car to hiking on the very next day.

Example 2

At 9pm, I was starving and the  was no proper food in the” temporary house”.  The cafe was closed. I have no car. I have a car, but I just met an accident last 3 months so it was still at the workshop. I already request the authority the permission so I can have the “free food” but there were just too many bureaucracy questions. All I can do was to abuse my medical knowledge. I am gonna let you imagine what comes next.

Out of desperation, I texted a friend to dine out the next day. And we had been having dinner almost every night for that month.

a) If isn’t because of the restriction and having no car, I would not be so close with an amazing friend. The one who I could always count on. You know who you are.

Sitting alone in my room, I reminded myself everything served a purpose. I was reminded myself

“BE PATIENT”

It is not like I have to sit down, and accept every faith blindly. The concept is wrong. Patience means you become proactive instead of reactive. Think all the possible solutions to the problem and execute them. Come up with back up plans. Acknowledge the feeling but not to be engulf in emotions.

Every moments, each of them contributed in my story. I couldn’t make it clear, but I could feel it with my heart.

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